The Dawning

How long does it take to make a judgement about someone? Almost no time at all. We see them and instantaneously we have them pigeon-holed. Fat, middleclass, expensive hair, worried, ugly, gorgeous, nice shoes, fanciable, not fanciable, haughty, trashy……….Usually we either instintively feel good about someone or bad. We are comfortable in their presence, or [...]

Why Won’t the Sun come out?

I live in the North of Scotland. It is very beautiful. Tourists come from all over the world to enjoy our Highland scenery. There is only one problem, (don’t tell the Tourist Board…)
The sun doesn’t shine. The sun doesn’t shine in the Winter – that’s OK, I don’t expect it to. The sun doesn’t shine [...]

The Day I Lost My Daughter

Actually, I didn’t lose her- but it felt like I did.
How?
For the first time in many, many years, she was away from home. Not just for the day, but for the night, five nights in all. What to do with myself? In the morning, I padded by her bedroon quietly, so as not to wake [...]

The Fishing trip

Today I went fishing in the ocean of the Internet.
Hour upon hour trawling autism sites, forums, groups, seeing who is out there in the world.
My haul was huge, we are huge.
Whole shoals of moans and groans, piranhas of no hopers, a sea of exhaustion and despair. My net caught children lonely in the playground, standing [...]

Heaven and Hell

Today I finished the final day of an amazing 6 day dance workshop…..At one time, I felt so alone and so lonely all I could do was weep. After a while, another dancer came up to me and joined me in my dance until I had moved through the emotion and was joyful again. Another [...]